I'm not sure this was a good idea for me right now. I'm going to think about it, about my purpose, about how or if I want to proceed. So, that's it for now.

And So It Begins

Greetings everyone! Today is the first day of my online musings. I am hopeful that with time I will be able to express myself -- my true self -- in a fuller and more satisfying way than ever before. As nearly everyone else probably does too, I hold so much back, even from myself, not letting difficult, painful, scary, or controversial thoughts and opinions fully materialize in my head, much less come out of my mouth or onto paper where others can get a hold of them, know about them, scrutinize, contradict, minimize, trivialize, and even laugh at them. Too afraid for that. What if they find my thoughts and ideas wanting in some way -- lacking substance, unworthy. So, in the past I have usually stifled myself, packed most of my mental stuff away, ignored it, or pretended it wasn't there. But it is there, and hiding it away has not served me well at all, so I'm trying something new -- blogging. I'm pretty excited about this. I'm gonna let it all (well, much of it, anyway) hang out. Can't wait to see where this will take me.